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So here I go quickly...
It's been a year and it's happened loads in the past year... I worked over the summer in a big grocery store over here (E. Leclerc) for 3 months. I worked at the shoes LOL and I bought myself a car ! Ford Fiesta, from 1993 a blue one ! its gorgeous and all clean i love it ! Im totally proud of it, i paid for it 2000€. It's like my baby today^^
In september I started uni again. All went alright through the first semester. In the second semester I met a girl in strasbourg, the friend of a friend of mine, and I totally fell in love with her ! Apparently it was the same case for her... she said my charm is unbelievable lmao... Anyway, we started talking on MSN tho we lived in the same city. We saw each other at private parties and stuff, and I started flirting with her. Btw her name is Marie-Amandine but called Miam. She's gonna turn 25 in july. 2 weeks after we met the first time, we started dating each other. At first secretly cuz she still lived with her ex Lucie.. But then she found out.. oops... :S Anyway, everything was fine for 2 months, she lived with me in my uni hall room. From one week to another she started to change. Slept at her own appartment again right next to her ex, went out with her friends without me and without telling me, made me wait till late in the night. She started to become distant and stuff. We started dating 26th february, well after 2 bizarre weeks with her she broke up in may the 15th...
Today she's all weird and bitchy to me. We fight a lot even tho we're not together anymore. She said when she broke up (THROUGH MSN WTFFFF..!!!) that if we have to be together we'll know that soon and it'll happen by itself. Right now she's got to get her life together, she's gonna turn 25 and has no job, didnt build anything yet in her life whatever. So to her im a stone on her way so she got rid of me. Even tho she used to be SO in love with me... :( It was tough for me, I got used to have her around me all the time... Got used to sleep right new to her, not to sleep alone anymore but.. ehh.. Today I dont wanna date her anymore, she's way too bitchy to me for someone who says still has feelings for me or is hanging on to me and who says that i count for this person... But I dont regret anything with her, we had amazing 2 months, everything was perfect, we had a good time and I wish it'd still be like this cuz I really loved her...
She opened my eyes for something new -> for WOMEN ! Im totally into women right now (yeah, lesbian !) even tho i was only gayfriendly before. I made myself an account on gaypax.com and I met a girl from Paris (Volkocha) who's called Zaan, 19 and way more mature than my ex who's gonna turn 25 !! I totally dig her omg... LOL she's SO SO SO freaking HOT. We talked a lot on MSN, shared phone number, and she was supposed to come tomorrow in strasbourg for the gaypride, but she can't cuz she only gets her money on tuesday *cries* but im going to paris for the 30th of the month with my girlfriends so I'm going to meet her !! she said to me she really wants to see me im a very nice person and she likes to talk to me on MSN, but atm she doesnt want a relationship, she's not looking for anyone.. But I hope to see her will make her change her mind. lol
I stopped uni, im working again at the Leclerc in Sarrebourg at the shoes, and in september im going to try to get into the police to get my life together ! if i get the 'concours' i'll be a year in paris which means i'll be able to see Zaan on a regular basis !! =) For now we'll only be friends, but I still decided that i'll try to kiss her on the eiffel tower !!!! lol
gtg to work now.
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